Have you ever turned to a tv show to help understand what’s happening in ‘real life’?
I certainly hope you’re answer is ‘yes’ otherwise this has the distinct possibility of sounding quite ridiculous.
In college, for me, it was without a doubt Sex & the City. I was Carrie with a dash of Charlotte & P was always Mr Big. I found comfort in all of their break-ups & the inevitable draw back to each other. I found comfort watching him hurt her, as messed up as that sounds. Even when he married someone else (who happens to have a beauuutiful name & I do not mean ‘the idiot stick figure with no soul‘) or even after standing her up at the altar in the movie, I still wanted them together. I wanted him to make it right, to win her back. I guess even more than I wanted to see that he was her ‘one’ I loved seeing that she was his.
My dear friend Megan recently mentioned to me that I might like “The Girlfriend’s Guide to Divorce” on Bravo. It only took one of those first awful weekends without my kids to binge watch season 1. While I kind of hate the show for glamorizing what is such a destructive & horrible event in people’s lives I once again found comfort in seeing the woman’s own journey which so closely mimicked mine. She built her career around being the woman who knew it all when it came to marriage, pregnancy, motherhood…and now, divorce? I can relate. On a much teeny tinier level…of course.
I don’t know what this blog will become, if anything. There is a lot of pressure to hurry up & figure out what my new life will be. It’s kind of crazy when you break it down. It took me 8 years of marriage & 6 years of children to build this life & now in 12 months of separation I’m supposed to create a new life for my children & for myself. It’s not fair. It’s not right. But it’s reality. And he has to do the same. I guess it’s the price we’re both paying.
Loving my girls & the love I receive in return from them is my biggest priority. If I’m being honest though, it also feels good to think about the possibility of something good coming from all this mess. It feels good when I share & then hear from you that it somehow it helped. It’s this wonderful yet sad cycle of hurt & healing that occurs when we choose to let eachother in & give without illusion or pride.
I think I just gagged in my mouth a little.
But seriously, maybe there’s a possible silver lining brewing here. Maybe, just maybe, something new will evolve. Something good that I didn’t expect.
My life has been turned upside down & shaken viciously, I’m hoping that Little Pink MonsterS might just be the positive pocket change that falls out. If I can be brave enough to get up & try again…
Natasha you are doing amazing! You are certainly an inspiration to me and I’m sure to many many others! I find strength hearing your story knowing I’m not the only one out there that’s gone through similar experience and I love that you live and breath positivity even when I can imagine how incredible difficult it has to be. Take care of you! Do you! Find your happiness where ever that may be….doing whatever it is that makes you happy! Whatever you do I’m sure you will be absolutely stellar!!!!
Inspired!! 💕💕
Stay strong Natasha! You’re doing amazing so far! A year ago, my world was completely rocked from the fallout of a nine year relationship, I had to dismantle our home and start over from nothing…this past year was all about rebuilding and finding out who I was without him again…once I found happiness alone, love found me again…and I can truly say this new man loves me for me and might truly be “the one”…making all the pain and struggle of the last year worth it…you’re a tough lady…hang in there, we’re all rooting for you! Xoxo
One step (in hopefully some marvelous shoes that only Carrie would wear), one day, one weekend at a time. Your heart will heal. The pain of it all will probably never go away, but it’ll some day start to fade and hopefully, just be a memory.
I still think of you daily and hope the sunshine is starting to peak through the ugly storm. You have so much to offer your girls, us and other woman going through the same struggle.
Continue to stay strong for your beautiful girls!
We will be here when you figure it all out, or don’t. Either way, if LPM(s) is just a once in a while outlet or a full fledged blog again I will keep following your journey. I have always adored you and I know you will do wonderful things. Just don’t let the pressure to perform here weigh you down.
xo- Kayla
You’ll get there. I promise. And your girls will be fine. I know you both love those girls with all you have. The ugliness will subside eventually. It might take awhile, but it’ll get better. Hang in there and take one day at a time.
Just let LPM be whatever. Blog when u want. Dont if u dont feel like it. Talk about any old thing. Like most blogs started. Just a real person talking (or complaining) about whatever they feel like. It was all so much more fun then!
I wish I could make you a mix tape of all the songs that have helped me through the past year. To start, listen to Danny Gokey’s “Tell Your Heart To Beat Again.”
First, maybe since I am a guy I wasn’t supposed to read and comment on a lady’s blog but “oh well”. Now, when I was in your situation two years ago I thought the same way you are thinking now. Those long weekends without my son also killed me but trust me it all gets better. I had my friends tell me the same two years ago and I didnt believe it could get better at all. You will create an amazing new life for your kids and yourself. It will probably be a life you didnt expect, but it will be amazing. Surround yourself with amazing family and friends and before you know it you will look back on this situation thinking “I did it and look where I am now”.
Sorry for rambling but keep that head up and keep pushing momma!!!!
Natasha, your words are truly inspiring! You have put into words the way I have been living my life for the last 3 years. Getting divorced was the hardest thing I have ever gone through in my life! But I refused to let him ruin my life. I Have now found who I absolutely believe is the love of my life. Please continue to hold your head high! This too shall pass.
As a child who experienced divorce at a young age, I am happy to say it is not all bad on our end! My parents learned how to co-exist and even established a friendship that was stronger than anything when they were together. I strongly encourage couples to find a similar place for their children. Holidays, Birthdays, and other special occasions were always celebrated together. As one family. Now in my grown up years and with my professional experience I see how scary marriage can be. I am married myself. Each day will be different. Good and bad. The writers in Hollywood are paid the big bucks to glamorize everything negative in our world. First and foremost heartbreaking situations such as divorce. But divorce or separation can be a time to re-evaluate youbas an individual. Many women identify themselves as a mom, wife etc. and lose some sense of self. Find her. Embrace her. Love her. Accept her. Which it sounds like you are trying to do. Yes, its terrifying. Keep doing what you are doing. Stay as strong as possible but embrace your weak moments they are the ones that teach us the most. Stay inspired. You will get through.
Natasha,
I am sure there is so much to the story that nobody knows or even needs to know. People forget that we are human, that no matter what divorce hurts. I am sure that when everything happened the only thing on your mind were the girls. Stay strong, everyone deserves happiness. I promise there is a light at the end of the tunnel. You will find your happiness and it will be amazing!!
Sending love your way
Just keep on staying strong! 3 years ago I thought my entire world was falling apart when my husband stated he was unfaithful. I promise good will come, but many small hills of pain sneak in there. Soon enough it’s all just a memory and you’ll realize it wasn’t the end of the world, just the beginning to a new chapter.
This is inspirational! I just finished binging SATC <3 Ugh, I had my own Mr. Big who it didn't work out with. I loooove your blog, and I wish the B.E.S.T. for you and your family. xo
I think you are amazing and an inspiration… I used to hear you on the show and wonder about you and after I met the folks last May I’m sorry but I realized P was not as nice as he sounds on air… Maybe something good will come from this and you will blossom and shine brighter than you ever realized you could. Wishing you all the best. 1St time checking out the blog. I’m hooked. Bookmarked.
THank you Alexis, I’m so glad you found me even if it was through the not best of circumstances. I’m very happy to have you here at LPM! Stay in touch, Nat
Just wanted to say Thank You! I’m 28 and how I have never watched Sex And the City before this past week, I have no idea. I started watching it after reading your post and I had to comment!
I was in a long term relationship where I was basically Carrie and he was Big. Now, I can say- he clearly wasn’t my Mr. Big, my “one”, no matter how much i wanted him to be, but your posts have given me a little glimmer of hope that Mr. Big isn’t always Mr. Right or more like Mr. Right Now.
Thank you for being stronger than you think you are being and thank you for the hope that life throws rocks at you, but it doesn’t break you.