Yesterday it was so nice and sunny out that Samster and I went on a playdate to the pool, it was WONDERFUL! I was telling P that as I was sitting there watching Sam splash and spending time with a very good friend I realized, you know what, I feel good! I feel really good! (especially considering I’d been up since 3a, delirium perhaps?)
Thank you so much to all of you who left comments yesterday or emailed me, I cannot even begin to tell you how much it makes my day to hear from people who read this. It just confirmed my decision to post about something that for some reason can be kind of embarrassing. It has helped me the most to talk with women who I know and respect and totally consider “normal” who have chosen to take anti-depressants at some point in their lives. I’m not a crazy person or weak I’m just a girl who’s learning to be a mom, which sometimes can be much much harder than anyone ever lets you know.
I don’t want to jinx anything but today feels pretty darn good too, I’m cleaning, cooking and even crafting again. (I have a super cute seastar template to post during Sam’s afternoon nap!) I think Sam and I might even head back to the pool today. Still not quite sure what to do about the insomnia, the Ambien obviously works but I feel like it’s my responsibility to listen for Sam during the night and not P’s since he has to go to work in the morning. But for now he swears it’s the right thing to do, what a good man. (:
I hope you have a sunny day as well!
